To be a writer I've heard that you have to be consistent at writing. You don't need to worry about having the perfect sentence or topic but just starting. So I come back to writing after hibernation - a long nap of sorts. I was talking with my guy about this today and how I've felt like something has been missing spiritually from my life and realized that visually putting words down is my spiritual act. It releases something in me as I let go of my tendencies to want have to have a brilliant thought. It makes way for my weakness to shine. And it is good. I can take off any perceived perfectionism and see that my raw true self is okay. Better than okay. Awesome!
The way I write is through just letting my fingers type letters that turn into words. Oh how I've missed this freedom! There is something so profound in typing out words onto a screen or taking a pen to paper. Does anyone else feel this way? I have forgotten what it feels like...to me it's pure beauty and delight! I'm not even joking, there is something that is released in me as my tension dissipates, as my mind focuses, and as my mind calms.
As I verbally and visually process, I am being spiritually renewed. Ideas and thoughts flow more freely and it's a reminder that in order to be balanced I need to remember to do the things that fill me up the most. The challenge for me is to be consistent. I struggle to do something repetitively (even if it's a different exercise class, writing topic, or restaurant) as good as it can be. I want the new, the exciting, the adventure...yet I'm reminded that my motives need to be in the right place rather than avoidance by filling my days with otherness.
I'm so thankful for my best friend who reminded me of my core values and encouraged me in my desires to write.
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